Thank you for your kind words. I hope you have a merry Christmas and a happy New Year as well!
Thank you for the caring, kind words. It feels nice to relate to someone. What really gets to me, are my grades. I was a straight A student in high school, and now I’ve got D’s. I haven’t had a D since before I struggled with my learning disability. But, like then, I was able to get through after changing my life. But this time I will see what I need to do.
I pray that you too will get through college and life. It’s definitely not easy, and it isn’t getting any easier. Thank you for sending me this message!
Thank you for the love. I’ve been needing to hear from someone else just something nice. It’s very much needed. Christmas won’t be the same without being high school and counting down the days till I’m off. I love that I get a month off, but I hate it at the same time because it just delays the inevitable…
But thank you so much for the kind words. I send virtual hugs your way, holding tight and just crying. Thank you so very much! <3
So because I just feel like ranting (somewhat) I’m going to tell you about my first semester in college, and what it was like for me.
At the beginning of this school year, after graduating, losing many friends, and moving to an entirely new neighborhood, I thought it wouldn’t ever end. Then it was brought to my attention that I had anxiety, where it almost put me in the hospital because I got so sick. I managed the first part of the year well enough, just making it through, until I started to get a hold of what was going on, yet I didn’t do well enough.
By midterms, I have made very little A’s, and mostly B’s, and D’s. My midterms were not well, making two D’s, and one B. It disheartened me, because I went from being a straight A honor student in high school with a 3.88 GPA, to a much lower GPA in honors college.
At the end of the year, which is now officially over, I have one B, as of right now, and two D’s. As an honor student, and on scholarship, I must uphold a 3.0 GPA, and with the two D’s, I have a 1. something…
My opinion of college is that you have some teachers that are willing to help and want to see you succeed, while others just pass you on to the next person and not taking any prisoners. They give you what you feel you deserve, even if the grading doesn’t make sense. After speaking with some of the teachers where this is concerned, it still didn’t help.
A few weeks ago, I also went through trouble with a friend, who has constantly been an issue now for the last year. After being friends with him for 8 years, it was hard to really imagine letting him go. But he took a big punch in my pride, and hurt me immensely, and he didn’t apologize for it after I told him. So we lost each other’s numbers, and we are not allowed to see each other.
From his antics, and a pairing with another friend on the same night, it hurt me so much, that I became depressed. My medication was doubled from the 20mg, to now 40mg. That’s a lot, and it affects me more than I care to admit.
So on top of this stress from school, I have the loss of a friend, emotional stress, and having to deal with anxiety and depression, I feel like I won’t have a truly merry Christmas, because I will have to face all of this when school starts back up again….
I have no excuses, I have nothing to look back that somehow overshadows all the bad. I need some inspiration, I need some help (aside from the counseling I have to look to), I wanted you guys to know, my faithful followers, and supporters.
Thank you for reading this all the way through. I know that most of you are focused on your fandoms, but I really wanted to get this off my chest.
it’s hard buying gifts for nerds bc you’re like “i want the thing but they’re my friend”
it’s the ultimate sacrafice
yes mom he’s 49 but he’s really hot
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yes mom he’s 30 but he’s really hot
yes mom he’s 34 but he’s really hot
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yes mom he’s 41 but he’s really hot
yes mom he’s 31 but he’s really hot
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when you know something doesnt fit in the fridge but you force the door shut and let it fall out on someone else